new block

seem like it was too long since my last post. it's basically not because i'm busy by then, it's due to my laziness on posting lately. I have start my new block last week. As for now, everything is fine. And, about my result, super Alhamdulillah. I feel REALLY THANKFUL TO ALLAH. Honestly, I felt like wanna give up as i can't answer my exam well but I'm sure that Allah help me a lot.

I really hope that this won't last. O Allah, help me in my studies.

Basically, I have a lot of thing to be shared by then my eyes feel really sleepy. Anyhow, pray for my success in my studies. I do hope that I can change myself to be a better person. Ameen.

P/S: sometimes it's too hard to accept the fate wholeheartedly by then Allah know the best for me. It's totally over for now and I'll keep praying for you.

a wonderful weekend..

Zumba..
Have you ever heard this word before? Sincerely, I never hear this. And, one day I found a pamphlet which invite all IIUM student to join ZUMBA.

Actually, it's a kind of exercise and I just found that this activity is the best that I had found. I really enjoy myself doing zumba. Maybe you can search more about it in youtube. It's much more enjoyable if I compare with aerobics. Surprisingly, it may burn almost 1000 calorie for 1 hour.

Thanks IIUM for inviting the zumba team to my beloved university.

After having fun with the zumba team, I went to the nestle booth. Then, they told me that I can get a 4gb pendrive for free if I complete the task given. The task is just taking picture with anyone, then, the picture will be upload in the fb. Next, I must tag 35 people in that picture. It's simple!

By the way, the person in that picture is one of my relatives. I can't believe to meet her in iium.  She's Nadia and taking Civil Engineering in UMP. Actually she came to IIUM to participate in Zumba dancing. 

away...

seem like I had become away from my blog..
actually there are too much stories to be shared
by then, lately I feel very lazy..
and, at the same time my final exam is just near the corner,
so, I must work hard.
Do pray for me..
^-^

redha

Having a short conservation with my friend last night make me realised something.
It's really make me shocked and I felt like "OMG!"
Maybe this is the time to accept my fate my redha.
Even it's VERY difficult for me to accept it, by then, this is THE BEST for me..

Open your eyes Naqiah. He absolutely not the best for you.
No matter how sad you are, you must accept it whole-heartedly.

I still trying to accept it slowly. It's really hard for me.
I must always feel thankful to Allah as He's really love me.

Thanks Allah. I just don't know how to express my feeling sometimes.

About the truth, just let it be the secret between me and He.

*footnotes*
maybe starting for today, I should change my behaviour.
Start go for my dreams.

a bit stressful...

sometime I keep wonder about my self..
what's the exactly things that I want in my life..
when he away from my life, I feel lost..
by then, when he come..
I'm a bit distracted..
I feel stressful..

maybe I should just let you go..
to him..
just go and never return back..
it's better if we are not contact each other...
I can't even hear anything about you...
now,
I just pray all the best for him and for me as well..
all the best in your life..

my mentor..

Let me introduce my mentor, Dr Anil Kumar Saxena. He is an Indian. He is very nice person and treats all the mentees like his children. He told us that he's going to be our guardian here. Oh God, I'm touching with those words.

Dr. Anil ask us to be frank with him. Just let him know if we got any problem that can disturb our studies. I feel happy for having him as the mentor.

For today's meeting, he share some tips with us. He told us that do revision is like a vaccine. After the class, we need to give first boost. However, the memory may decrease just like the vaccine, the effect will decrease. Thus we need to give another boost and the body will become immune. It's will be similar to our memory. It's will become immune in our brain. So, whenever we need the knowledge, the brain can easily interpreted it.

I hope you can understand what I mean as I don't know how to explain it fully. I just give a brief idea.

Next, he told us that we need to understand well what we are studying. Not just know the surface area or just remember without understanding. We can easily remember when we understand very well what we are reading. Anyway, it's my responsibility to have a good knowledge as I have choose this career. I must fulfill all the amanah.

Naqiah, just believe in yourself. Always tajdid your niat. Study lillahi Ta'ala. Really hope that Allah will always help me in studying. Ameen.

*footnote*
i'm using a VERY broken english. haha.

I got 1 tip to increase our memory while studying
> always try to remember ayat from the quran before start studying. The memory may last forever. InsyaAllah.

"nice" memory...

today i got a very "NICE" memory that i will never forget until my last breath...
i still remember the words..
'she's sleeping..and now, she awake'

Oh God, I had been caught sleeping in the class and this is very embarrassing for me..

Dr. Saad, I feel very sorry as this is totally my fault. You have already remind us that we need to be a good student in order to become a good doctor and I make you fail to achieve your dream. Really sorry. I'll try my best not to fall asleep again in your class.

It's look like that i need to find a way to be active in class.

And, I must realise that I need to change as I'm going to be a person that need to treat others. How to treat others if I fail to treat myself.

Feeling really nervous and sad at that time and my tears trying to come out too. O Allah, give me strength.

*footnote*
sorry to all classmates as my bad attitude make doctor scold us.
lately, I feel very away from Allah. I doesn't feel good. Maybe I need to come
near to Allah to make me become better. =_=

finally home...

After about two month in IIUM Kuantan, finally i come back home. Alhamdulillah. Really wanna remove all the stress. I do miss my family a lot and at last I can meet them. So excited to be at home. Anyway, sadly to say that I must study at home. O Allah, how to get the mood to study, I'm really tired.  But I must always remember that study is an ibadah and i should never complain about it. I should do everything for the sake of Allah.

And, you know what, suddenly I miss my roomates. They're kind of good friends and always cheer me up. I do love them so much. We face the problem together, we study together, eat together and sooo much things we do together and maybe I need to do another post about my lovely roomates. Anyway, I miss them even I just arrived at home.

*footnotes*

My examination result had been pasted on the board yesterday and the only word that come out in my mind is Alhamdulillah. Maybe I didn't get the best but i have done the best that I can and I get what I deserved. And of course I didn't get an excellent result as others but I know Allah know what is the best for me. Just accept the fate with redha. Thanks to all my friends who always help me in my studies. 

alhamdulillah...

After 10 days of non-stop studying (as counted by one of my beloved roomate), finally the examination day is coming. During these days, my mind really2 need extra glucose. Never in my life having a long period of studying. Sometimes, I keep wonder either I can survive or not. But I always remind myself that sometime I need to sacrifice in order to get the thing that I really2 want.

The exam is called MINITEST and it take just 1 hour to finish it. By then, I need to have 2 month of studying to face the minitest. OMG! I just can pray for the best as I have strive as much as I can. O Allah, give me at least pass.

By the way, the scenario here, most...I repeat almost all student in medical course in IIUM failed their minitest. Oh no!

So, I have do the best that I can, only Allah will decide it for me now. Just pray for the best. Amin.

*etc....
feeling grateful that I could handle the stress and sadness within the study week. No more cries!

at last...

"Crying doesn't make u strong"

I always heard this phrase. Everyone keep saying that crying doesn't make u strong. But, as for me, crying is the kind of therapy. Sometimes we need to wash our eyes.

Hmmm...it's really easy to pretend strong even the heart is full with tears. The face trying to keep the truth. The face try to make the happiest face so that it's won't influence others. However, sometimes, the heart can't bear it alone. It needs the eyes to accompany. And, at last the tears might come down.

fever...

FEVER???

Okay, I admit that my life now is super hectic and I still not used to it yet. I have totally change right now. Not the lazy Naqiah any more. Sometimes, I can't believe that I can wake up very early in the morning just for my studies alone. Now, u can see, how nerd i am now. Haha. Anyway, gain knowledge is never wasting my time and at the same it's kind of ibadah. So, everyday, I must renew my intention of studying. 

As this kind of lifestyle, which is study all the time, make miss FEVER come near to me with her friends, FLU, COUGH..okay, thanks to them as they accompany me for a few days..it's really a test for myself. Just trying to be patient.

Hmm, sometimes i feel that my life is not very organised well now. Even to take a bath make me feel that it's wasting my time. haha. It's funny. Anyway, i never miss my bath time just the feeling of laziness always come.

I think i should start study now rather than posting ridiculous thing here. =P 

nice word...

I just finished my supper and the menu are tosai + burger + roti canai. Look at the menu, it's fattening! haha.

Naqiah said that she want to diet, by then her mouth can't stop eating 24/7..it's ridiculous..

actually, right now, I have no mood to study anything and suddenly a nice sentence coming out from my mind..

" Someday, someone who's going to marrying me will thank you for letting me go"

And only certain people will understand this words and how's it related to me...

i need a maid...

How grateful am I now if I have a maid in my room. At least I got someone who can help me as my life now is super hectic. Oh future husband, please come early and hire me a maid. As a husband, you must always want to make me happy, right? I need a maid right now.
*Haha, just kidding. Forget it.

sometimes, I feel like no time to manage my own self.
( But still have time to play around, gossiping, oversleeping =P)

I feel too lazy right now. I miss my super free time at home.

Too much thing that I haven't cover yet for my minitest.

Oh Allah, give me strength!

i'm late...

Oh no!
It's already 12 pm and I just wake up. My bad.
I just posted that I want to switch myself into studying mode and absolutely I break that promise.
And now, I still wasting my time in front of my laptop while having a bowl of nestum for my breakfast.
Okay, enough, I need to use my time wisely.

study mode....

' Hooray, we got holiday for 5 days '

 For sure, most of the students become really excited. Having bunch of planner, movie, shopping, bowling, vacation and etc...

Hummm..i wish that i can do all that activity during this long holiday, but then....MINITEST is coming..Okay, i need to switch myself into studying mode. And yes, i'm gonna be NERD student. Studying all the time. It's quite stressful for me actually, but what to do, this is the choice that i had chose before.

as Dr. San San Mint told us, "once enter, no turning back ya!"

Oh Allah, i need the strength from You. Hope i can cope with the life as a medical student. However, don't get me wrong, it's fun being a medical student. it's difficult to explain for now, maybe one day i'll the happiness of becoming medical student in IIUM.

Alright Naqiah, no more playing around. Be focus, you don't have enough time. too much thing to cover within this 5 days holiday. And, actually it's a punishment for me as i always sleep during class. My bad. Do CHANGE!

Do pray for me, k..

my minitest will be on 31 Oct 2011...

hahaha...maybe this picture might describe my life now..

summon!

Oh no! i got summon from the guard. no lies. i hate iium's security and wishing not to meet them again forever in my life. Argh, it's totally normal right to get mad. My bad, why i'm too careless? i got summon because i did't wear helmet. Okay fine, i need to be more alert with the iium's rules. i got tired with the rules actually. 

Naqiah, please be patient dear, it's just a small problem by the way. Sometimes i feel like wanna laugh to myself. HAHA. That's totally my own mistake. Just pay and no need to talk much about it any more.

Just now, i just get my appeal approval to decrease the amount of summon, and again i get mad. They just decrease it from 50 to 30. It's really waste my money. HUH!

*ect.........

- sometimes i feel really cool, going to class by motorcycle everyday. It's cool, right? I never thought about it before. Anyway, i enjoy myself. At least, i need not to wait for the bus anymore. =)

simple update...

hey, it has been two month since my registration day at iium kuantan. My bad, i haven't post anything yet in my new blog. Oh God, life is too busy here and i still can't organise myself yet. i promise to my self to make this blog part of my life after entering medical school but as i said, i still can't organise myself yet. It's super hectic to be medical student. But, i'm not trying to say that i'm 24/7 with the book. Since there is no wifi in my hostel before, it's a bit hard for me to update this blog. Alhamdulillah, IIUM had pay the license for internet coverage in Al-Tabari last week, so, i think there should not be any reason for me not to update anything here. Maybe someone might think, what is Al-Tabari, actually, it's my hostel's name in IIUM Kuantan. Later i'll talk more about my hostel. Since i's just a simple update, i think i need to stop now. see u...


 

i need to change..

salam pembuka bicara.

biar aku simpan semua kisah-kisah lama yang sangat banyak memberi pengajaran dalam hidup ini.

biar kini aku buka cerita yang baru dalam lembaran hidup ini.

semua cerita lama akan aku simpan rapat-rapat di satu tempat.

kisah yang penuh dengan duka, kesedihan dan penyesalan.

biar ia semua jadi pengajaran dalam hidup.

aku akur bahawa pengalaman lah yang banyak mengajar kita.

mematangkan hidup ini.

La Tahzan!

itulah satu kata semangat dalam hidup ini.

semoga hidup yang baru ini lebih matang.

mahu dilupakan kisah yang lama yang banyak mengeluarkan air mata.

cukuplah sampai di situ.

diri ini perlu sesuatu yang baru.

esok mahu pergi ke kuantan.

berbaur perasaan di hati.

kejap rasa cuak.

kejap rasa tak sabar.

kejap rasa takut.

apa yang paling penting.

aku mahu betulkan niat.

biarlah semuanya Lillahitaala...

insyaAllah